I miss you like a child misses their blanket...

I miss Jay.. I know ok it's a mushy post.

Things are different with him.. For one I tell him all my stupid stuff I never told M. about. (Like yeah he's so gonna hear about today's drama tonight lol..) I love sleeping next to him. When he's not around I miss him, but it's not all tragic and intense ala Nate... It's like he's with me even when he's not... Hokey I know...

When he asked me 'bout going to see his 'rents, I felt this knot in my chest. I mean, is this serious? He's serious 'bout me?? WTF is this boy thinking???? And he likes me for me, I am always my vain, snobbish, high maintenance self around him... Not to mention fickle, a total lush and wearing shirts that show off my boobs. I mean let's face it, I am not serious girl material... Ok maybe to him I am...

Last friday night, I got rocked with my friends and told him I loved him... Oh yeah I said it. I don't even know if I meant it, or if it was just in response to drinking.... But I felt it in that moment.. 2 and a half months and I'm in love???? You must have me confused with someone else....

(at least he hasn't brought it up..maybe he forgot???)

Whew...