Work has been pretty crappy lately. Ok not the my job part, it's the stuff going on behind the scenes that make it stressful for me. I used to love coming in to work and lately, eh not so much.
In other news, crappy paycheck this week, only cuz it went to pay bills. So yeah I have um $5 for the week. Ok color me respondsible for paying my bills, but man, do I miss the days of free spending. Jay offered to give me money to do stuff, but I declined. I love that he wants to take care of Mary and I, but I need to retain my independance. Part of what totally screwed M. and I, was my lack of finanicial independance.
Speaking of the dreaded ex, his mother dared to cut Mary's hair (crooked I might add). I was livid, beyond pissed. I mean Mary is my child, he's like disneyland dad, no rights there in my book. God, Jay is more of a father to her then M. has ever been. WTF? I divorce him, yet I still have to deal with him and his family and all their bullshit.
This morning, I woke up around 3am and just kinda watched Jay sleep. I really love him. I love how he and I are, it's so comfortable and perfect. Plus he never puts me down or hurts me like M. did. Seriously in four months, we have barely fought. We've argued and agreed to disagree, but never thrown insults and been hurtful like M. and I did. Plus Jay always does his thing and doesn't care if I do mine.
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