You don't know me, you don't even care, You don't know me, you don't wear my chains...

Hmm all is pretty well.... Jay is coming back tomorrow, we have 3 whole days to kiss and babble and snuggle before I am off to sunny Myrtle Beach... All is in perspective...
I must confess to having a little mini freak out over a confession I made to Jay regarding my feelings. But, as usual, my Jen helped me sort it out..
I guess by reading Danielle's blog she's still a little hurt by my comments about her not being a mom. When I wasn't a parent, I thought I knew what it was all about till I was one. Guess that's all I meant. I mean there's nothing wrong about not being a parent. I think all I meant was that I wish she'd respect she doesn't walk in my shoes like I respect that I don't walk in hers. 'Kay?
But it made me think.. I mean I try to make it a practice not to judge people, after all everyone's got their something. And I definately know I have my somethings... We all do, that is so life. So I guess I am really about the live and let live, especially when it comes to my friends...
Talking to Jay today, made me realize how happy I am, with or without him. I mean he adds to the happy.
I have missed him this week.
Saw M. today, which, honestly is never fun. He was in "i want you back" mode, which will sooo never happen..
Lately, things have been going @ top speed @ work. Tracy and I have a new job we've been working on and it's taking up lots of time. But it's fufilling.
And I guess I've made less time for some, but the times spent with friends have been fantastic lately...
Jay has this laid back, VT attitude and it's rubbing off on me. I haven't been sweating all the little stuff as much.. I mean I am mega broke, getting old (lol) and maybe losing friends as we speak, but I am loving this time in my life.
Mary is getting so big. I love having her. I will never understand why M. chose to give it up. There is nothing more I could ask for....
And when I wake up in the morning and have breakfast with her and Jay, dare I say it, like a family, my heart and my head feels content.... For the first time in so long I feel like me.
So take me or leave me, but I've finally found myself again!